Oh the papers!

I have this old copy of a school newspaper from when I was in the eighth grade at Central Middle School. I was on the Publication Staff. I think back in the day we called ourselves the PUB staff. Although ironically, PUB also means bar. I could make a joke but I'll leave it alone.

I decided to upload a few pictures from that paper to show you all something I wrote in the eighth grade. I wrote about MTV AKA Music Television. I think you can enlarge the image and see my work. I used to love The Cranberries.

Okay, so back to the movies. I have seen a few since the last time I wrote in. Oh man there are some crappy movies.

S. Darko A Donnie Darko Tale directed by Chris Fisher-

In this movie these two girls decide to go to California. They end up in this little town and it was lame. One of the girls is Donnie's little sister Samantha. She had these bitchen heart shaped sun glasses but other then that- the movie sucked. In a few parts Sam is dead or looking dead. When they did her make up, it ended up making her look like something out of Demon night or Night of the Living Dead. The only funny parts were-
At one point the guy who ran the hotel came to the room for more money and Samantha told him she would have to talk to her friend. Then she shut the door. The guy who ran the hotel started to talk at the closed door and he ask Samantha questions. He ask if she remembered that island where Jimi Hendrix and Elvis are living and still playing music now?

Then the second funny thing was when-
That chick who played Jesse on Saved by the Bell started to describe what she thought Jesus Christ looked like. She said that he was tall, built, tan and had lightening volts coming out of his eyes.

The movie S. Darko was 1 hour and 43 minutes. I would personally like to add that- that was 1 hour and 43 minutes that I will not get back out of my life.

Jim Henson's storyteller; Greek Myths

This was an HBO series from 1987. If you rent this from Net Flix, then make sure you get all of them. They have broken them up by Myth. I watched the one about Daedalus and Iscarus. It was good but I wanted to see something about Pandora.

The Dog in the movie is too cool and will remind you of something from Sesame Street, or Fraggle Rock.

Ed Gein-

This movie was a view on the man whom everyone knows as Leather Face. I have heard a lot of stuff about this guy and I still question it because unless you sit down and talk with someone then you honestly can't say that you know anything. This movie was actually spooky but it was cheesy the way the man who played Ed Gein kept looking at people. It was like he was questioning them and waiting for his Eggo Waffle. This movie showed that he wanted to wear women's skin. That is true but I have heard rumors that he was never actually found. So I'm just going to say that with all things considering, it was good.

We all scream for Ice cream-

This movie was annoying. There is a little town with an ice cream man whom is mentally retarded. The kids in the town make fun of him and then he gets old and dies. Years later one of the kids (who is now an adult) moves back to the same town with his wife and kids. All the kids who made fun of the ice cream man back in the day start to die. Then everyone finds out that the new ghostly ice cream man who is the ghost of the old ice cream man has come back for revenge. That man gives all the children ice cream to eat, when they eat the ice cream- their parents melt and die. That all sounds okay but when you watch it, its more like-

If you take a Baskin Robins Ice cream commercial and then mix it with Desperate Housewives, then make a after school special for adults with them, there you go. It is boring and pathetic.

I went to the movies and saw the new Robin Hood and the new remake of Nightmare on Elm Street.

Robin Hood was great. It was funny in a few parts but it was not silly and they showed what heart there is in that story. Russle Crow was amazing as well. I swear that guy is just too easy to look at.

Nightmare on Elm Street used the one of the hero's from The Watchmen to play Freddy. It was not the exact same as the original and they did not turn it into some sex fest. There is nothing wrong with sex, but if your movie sucks so bad that you have to make people have sex just to get ratings then there is something wrong. It was clever and actually good but it was not great. That is not just because Robert Englund was not in it. The reason I say that- is that they took on one of the biggest classic films and made it pretty much the same as before. In the end, the mom was not sucked through the door. This was cool what they did. They made Freddy stand inside the mirror and reach out to pull her through by her eye sockets. The C.G.I was amazing considering that this was not a film about aliens or creatures. I was impressed with a lot in it and the over all movie but it was not perfect. I think in the dream world things are more like a wonderland of imagination. I think the only way they could have made this movie perfect without shit slinging from everyone would be if they over did the C.G.I and a few other things. I was also pleased that New Line Cinema did not pull a Lion's Gate and make the death scenes too nasty. If you have to pull out the guts out of your actor to make people not laugh at you then- there is something to worry about.

Alice in Wonderland

The weird thing about those two pictures right above where I'm writing is the fact that the man by himself on the left is Sir. Robert Helpmann the actor. The woman and man to the right are Lovely and Mr. Howell. That woman looks like Sir. Robert Helpmann. He was in a version of Alice in Wonderland that I watched last night. I am going to compare it the Tim Burton version a little later. The version I saw last night was called- Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. It was directed by . The story is different then the Lewis Carroll story in some ways. They start out with a boat ride which is ironically, the assumption of how Lewis Carroll aka Lewis Dodgeson came up with the idea for Alice. As history tells it,

This is a small biography written in blog form by myself Jessica.

Lewis Carroll was born with the Pen name of Charles Lutwidge Dodgson in 1832. He was a very shy, solitary, and talented man as we all know. Lewis was an English author and mathematician.

Lewis completed his education at Christ Church Oxford and received a lectureship which he held for most his life. Lewis found his happiest moments in the company of children and he sought their attention and company.

A boating picnic with the Liddell sisters lead to the book Alice in Wonderland 1865.

History tells that the story was to entertain the three girls but then lead into, the real Alice, but then lead into the literary creation of Alice's Adventures Underground, with his own illustrations. With urging from friends, the story was polished and then with John Tenniel's illustrations with the present title. The reception of the book caused Carroll to write a sequel, Through the looking Glass, and what Alice found 1872.

The story of Alice is Carroll's most recognized work, but he also published a serious and pedantic works on logic and mathematics.

Although in this 1972 movie when Alice played by (Fiona Fullerton) was talking to the Caterpillar (Ralph Richardson) she did argue with him over the nursery rhyme that she spoke but he did not go into the poem himself. She kept singing because this movie is a musical.

That I want to add, is my personal opinion of the 1960s and 1970s. The people of that generation had to sing so that their clothes would make sense. Then they all got depressed and started to use drugs. That would also explain their clothes and wall paper choices. Anyway in this movie, the part where Alice comes out of her own tears, only to dance to get dry is much different. The song they sing is different then the one in the actual novel written by Lewis Carroll, and I might want add that as she fell through the rabbit hole, she did NOT get any Orange Marmalade. Moving on blah blah I saw Tim Burton's cover of the story the night it came out in theaters.

Oh yes I had to and I even made an attempt to have dinner out. I did the usual Jessica thing that I do when I get the money to go out and eat.

1. I ate alone.

2. I had an alcoholic drink.

This time it was designed by me. I ask them to put Absolute Vanilla Vodka with strawberries, Bananas, whip cream, and ice.

3. I ordered desert first, and then took my meal home for later.

4. I left a tip.

5. That night I did not sit at one of the tables with crayons so that was a first. I usually scribble all over the place. NO JOKE.

Then I went and sat with a room full of people to see what Tim Burton had in store for us all. He did keep up with the book to a certain level but he made it his own and it was a little different then the actual book. The cat is out of the bag and so its not like I'm giving it away for you by talking about it now. Ann Hathaway played the white Queen. It was like waiting on Glenda the good witch to pass the bong. I don't believe in doing drugs but she walked around like she was floating and wanted to break out in song. I swear I'm not lying. I am not saying that Ann Hathaway does DRUGS. NO SHE DOES NOT. I am saying that the way she carried herself was like that lady from the Progressive commercials that goes by Flow or fay. The one who is always ditsy and weird. You just feel like she is going to break out in song like some lame 1970's movie. No I'm NOT saying the lady fay or flow from the Progressive commercials does drugs either.

The only musical that I have ever seen that did not make me want to bark, was The Rocky Horror Picture Show. I had to interject that. Okay back at it-
Then the best part was they finally showed off what that Red Queen did with all her severed heads from her subjects that she did not like. They put them in the water stream outside the castle. Alice had to walk over them. That was cool. Carter is one of my favorite actresses because she makes a face that is just igniting and no I'M NOT IN LOVE and NO I DO NOT WANT HER BODY. I swear I deal with morons. They have a two minute memory and honestly, have no idea what that crap sounds like when they mouth it. This is just my opinion. Although without the given that I'll sound narcissistic or self righteous- I think my opinion is special and not in a blue light red helmet kind of way. I like saying it how it is.

Let me tell you what I do not like- When you pick up a magazine and it says that there is a movie that is the must see of the year. Then you go see it only to be shown what should be the lamest attempt at giving people jobs so it looks like they do something for their money. You're bored and the only funny part of the movie is when you think about how lame it is. Then you think of ten ways to degrade it.

Oh and Avail Leven or whatever her name is. Did she ever figure out who the Ramones are? Yeah I heard on GMA that she was going to put out a special line of fashion for the Alice in Wonderland movie at Macey's or whatever. Does she even like Alice in Wonderland or is this one of those jump on the trains and hope to make a buck off it because most of her fans did not get their allowances yet and so royalties have not been coming in as fast? Was that a run on sentence? Okay well, my point is this- There are a lot of oh look a new whats in, and then you get everyone saying oh did you see me in it? Yeah we saw and still don't care. I am not saying don't better yourself. I am saying- DON'T FAKE IT. Oh I have always wanted to say this about that girl Avail. I picked up one of her CD's once (Yes I'm admitting it.) Well, it sucked. On her first album there is a song that gets played on the radio called Fake it or something like that. Ironically, there is a country song that is just like it. No joke. Its called complicated by Carolyn Dawn Johnson. I guess that is where Avail got her song. haha well I wouldn't know. That is an opinion. Country music is not that bad, its okay. There are a few good songs. That is not one of them. I am just saying. Okay well, I am going to upload some of my Alice stuff. I'm showing off now. I had a shitty day due to this weird EMO stalker that I have. He will not let me go and let a LOT of people see pictures he took of me without my permission.

Moving on-

Okay well I also picked up a book that for the first time in the history of my 30 years on this damn planet, I will not finish. It is called Alice in Sunderland. Bryan Talbot wrote a comic type book, that is Lewis Carroll going through the history of Sunderland the theater. I get it and its cool in a sense, but I do not care about Sunderland the theater. The coolest part of the book is the fact that Dark Horse published it. They put out the Hell Boy, and Emily the Strange comics. Other then that, we will not talk about it. The graphics in the book are respectable but I just don't care at to know about Sunderland.

The reason I have always loved Alice in Wonderland so much is probably because there is this similarity between my life and that story. The demanding red queen reminded me of my mother, and every little girl wants a white rabbit. Going through everything in life can be draining and it always seems like you are being stopped and questioned. No one said life was fair, but at times life comes off like it is one big obstacle. So the story just felt right as a child. It seemed like a true story when I was four years old. Now its the irony of my day. I loved picking flowers out of peoples yards when I was a little girl. I got into trouble for it so much. I would always go back and do it again. In the book of Alice in Wonderland she does love flowers and she talks about her cat as though it is a person. When you have a cat, they do seem like family. It is hard not to talk to them and expect them to do what you say. Cats do what they want, and it gets annoying. I do love the story of Alice in Wonderland and any time I find a version of it, even if I don't agree with it, I will pick it up and check it out. :)

Shadow and the kittens

I'm not even sure where I'm going with this one. I think I'm just up too late and so it is ramble babble time. My cat has found this new found hobby of walking around and meowing out of the back of her throat. That sounds beautiful to most cat lovers or even cute to the average on looker but it is actually annoying to hear. She is talking to her kittens constantly. I have no idea in the world what it is that she feels the need to say that she cannot stop saying, but its always there. Shadow has also found a need to be near me again. I say again. I made her live outside for a while. I got sick of her litter box and the fact that she would not stop getting on things, so I put her out for a few months. I just recently let her back into the house. Apparently- she feels like we should be around each other all the time. I do not mind this but I do not understand. I am not a cat, she is not a human. I do not take in activities with the cats like most pet owners. In fact as much of a cat lover as I am, I have never done much with them. I usually just let them do their own thing. None of Shadow's kittens look anything like her. This is completely strange to me, because she is a Tonkinese cat. Shadow is not a full blood Tonk but she has the markings there of. The way you get a Tonkinese kitten is when you let a female Burmese and a male Siamese cat mate. The kitten will take the females bone structure but the males coat. The odd thing is with cats who look Tonk or who are- no matter how they mate, usually they have all or at least one Tonkinese kitten. Shadow had a few spotted kittens and then some grey kittens. I am still lost on that. If I had not been in the house when she gave birth to them, I would have not been sure they were her litter. They are adorable and will all be sent off into the world to do evil to someone else's couch someday. I'm just saying.

Happy card day via next in line to pay up

I found out the other day that even though your driving record does matter to insurance companies, the record of the car matters too. That may have come out in a manor that will confuse most. Let me explain what happened. I was talking with my mother about car insurance and she said you know why your car is so high? I said because its a sports car? She said no, because of the model. The lady at the insurance company said that insurance companies raise prices on all models when a certain make of a car is in a certain number of wrecks. So if lets say for example a Ford s10 black pick up was in a wreck in SD and then the same make and model in every state for the next ten months- Every person in the US who owned or bought one of those models would have higher insurance. That annoyed me to no end. I am even more annoyed by State farm for sending me those spam letters in the mail about signing up with them for car insurance. A few months back I looked around for cheaper insurance and now I can't get rid of them. They will send me this lame bumper sticker too. It says- "Please don't hit me. I'm not 100% sure that I'm covered." What do they think I'm going to do with that? Yeah that is so cool, let me put it on my window and show it off. OOOHH BABY!!!!! JK! I personally get the point but they could just let it go by now.
The next thing is this past holiday that we all had to go through. Yes thank you major market companies for your input. God bless the main stream bull crud. You do know what I am talking about there. They do that to make money and no one pays attention because they're too busy looking at all the pretty wrapping paper and cute characters on the packages. The thing that will make you sick is when they use the word LOVE itself to sell Valentine's Day. Love is a word that is hard to come by and the people who use it do not know the actual meaning. So its funny that they sell it off like boxed chocolates. More then likely they're men. They like to party and they drink too much, for got where they left their keys and well- there you go. I go all out for Halloween and Easter. Can I just point out a few things? Please let me. Okay for one- if the people at the bank want to take a day off then great. We would all understand. You work hard. Just do not take off for some holiday like President's Day and say its important like Christmas. Let me point out why. Did you run home to cook all day for your family? Did you learn or study about those men who lead out country and then died? Did you go take a moment of silence or even do anything on that day off to remember them? NO YOU DID NOT, more then likely you did stuff for yourself. So stop using it as an excuse to close the doors. I was not mad or even going to use the bank that day, I am just saying. Holiday time is a way for big companies to make more money and they are so good at it. I still want to point out how silly the idea of the Easter bunny is. I know this is not coming out as funny as it probably is mean and angry- I'm not a joker. I just have an opinion. The thing is- if you woke up on Easter and a giant rabbit was out side your window with a basket of eggs trying to get into your home, you would call the nation guard and you would spray it with a can of raid. I would kick it too. Although I would probably take pictures for my blogger because no one would believe me. Its the cutest thing but still kind of creepy. The reason I love Easter is my faith in Jesus Christ, but that brings me to Christmas. Okay does anyone else find Santa freaky? Santa Claws is some old guy who lives out in the middle of no where with a bunch of midgets. He makes them makes toys. Then Santa goes into town once a year to sneak into your home to give out toys to little kids. He wants them to write him secret letters to tell him what they want. YEAH thats not weird ??? Hey here is a creepy thought- If you take the letters in Santa's name and switch them up, you get Satan. I am going to leave that alone.
I have to say that even with all the pretty red colors Valentines Day is probably one of those boring holidays and it just feels over before it starts. There is nothing to it. Its just lame. The only thing you can say for it is that there is always chocolate. I'm not on a boat. I'm up too late and I'm going to go. I have too much to do and I'm being lazy. I just wanted to mouth off about fake companies and since insurance companies make my shit list- I thought about candy companies who over price around holidays.
P.S.
The stickers and pictures at the top are credited here-
1. The John Wayne picture is a post card that I picked up a few years back and I did not know what to do with it. He is cool. I'm not big on westerns. I am more of Clint Eastwood fan. Well with Valentine's Day- I had to post a picture of one of the last cow boys you know. Men who do what they say.
2. The Scarling sticker looked like love gone wrong. I do not believe in that whole revenge stuff. So that is sick. I just thought it went with a more so realistic side to this fake holiday. I have always had a dark grim out look on life. So my likes and interest show case it. Whats odd is that the CD from them is not like the sticker.
3. The cat and mouse picture I just love and my cat just had kittens. I think it goes back to moving on with life. Moving forward and not backwards.
4. The garbage sticker- IS simple I think no matter where you come from you should not let it hold you down but you should not forget it. That is not what that band was or is about.
5. The insurance sticker was just proof that I was not making a joke about State farm. They actually sent me that crap.

Riding along in my auto mobby

So they say men are the root of all evil these days. LOL sorry, but I had to go there. I would like to go for a drive but I personally do not want to waste the gas and I do not see the point in listening to crappy radio advertisements for 30 to 50 minutes. I was in the car today and they played LOVE and AFFECTION by THE NELSON TWINS. I think they always went by "The Nelsons". Anyway when I was 11 years old for my birthday, I got their tape for my birthday. We would play it while we cleaned our rooms. The next year I was listening to Metallica and had pretty much forgotten about it. The Nelsons were not all that bad. I think they just got a bad wrap because of all the nice soft yeah well my mom approved so yeah. Anyway it was the coolest in the car today. I was driving along and they played that song. I just about jumped out of my seat. I could not believe it. I wished my sister was there. She would have been dancing in the seat and acting crazy like she does. I love my sister. We used to get into so much trouble for playing around and not cleaning our rooms. Oh man, and we laughed so hard that I cannot even tell you half of what was so funny. I do not even think we knew. The thing is, it was just funny. By the end of the day, our rooms were clean though. I do not know why we could not get along until we had to though. If we were left there alone we fought like cats and dogs. If we were around each others friends, it was war, and if we had to share anything, it was not going to happen. I do not know how to explain it. That song brought back some memories. I kept smiling. I just wish MJ was there to share it with me.
I saw on face book where someone made a fan page for a pickle. That was too funny. Thank you for that. It made me laugh. It had no actual reference to anything other then a pickle but hey very cool.
I also found out three new things today. Three things that I will NEVER forget. As long as I live, even with a photographic memory- these things will live with me ever after. Let me explain. With a photographic memory- though you never forget, you also do not sit around and think about it. These three things will haunt me in my sleep for some time. Maybe not forever, but for sometime. So for that- I thank you. And we welcome you to Munchen Land.
P.S. The new art is by a man named "Daniel Merriam" via face book. His stuff is great and I hope he does well. I am a new fan. I'm just learning about him. I always like to view art. Art is a magic all of its own.

There's no need to argue anymore.

Feb-5-2010
I decided that it was tacos but then taco bell had this long line through the drive through and the line when you walked inside was even worse. It smelled like something "wrong" when you got to their door so I decided to just go somewhere else. I am going to leave that description with the word itself "WRONG." So anyway I ended up at Taco Bueno. It tasted like they actually used real hamburger meat. That was a plus. Usually when I go out to fast food places the meat has some strange under taste that makes me think of that line "If you don't eat your meat you won't get any podding."
My aunt sent me some diet facts in the mail. I am constantly keeping up with different trends. I guess it goes without showing that there is always some new method out and about to keep up with. Fast food does not make the list. Although- it taste great. I am not sure how food can be meant for you, good for you and then if cooked a certain way, be so bad for you. I'm still lost on that.
2-6-2010
Tonight I went out and I saw Avatar finally. The CGI was great. That was almost like Light brights brought to life. I loved it. The creatures were too beautiful and the best part was how the humans were referred to as Aliens rather then the other way around. It was just fun. The acting was not all that great, and it was more like a big Ferngully for adults but it was still good. I think my big pull was all the trust issues in the movie.
I found out that they sell chocolate cheerios now, and I got some. I will have to tell you later what they taste like. I wanted to give a shout out to the old bat at Wal-Mart who hit me with her cart on the 3rd of this month. I turned and looked to see if I knew her. She said she was sorry, that she was in a hurry to be with her husband. I did not make a scene. I just slightly laughed it away. I find that funny because she had a load of odd things to check out with. None of them were things that you cannot live without. They were things that she could blow off to run out the door, to go be with him. I think she lost her meds. I do not know her but I am guessing.
I found a candy company a few years back that sold organic chocolate. They put fun bug facts on the packages. I guess they're still in business. I bought another one of their little treats the other day when I was at Jude's coffee shop. Mine had more information on mosquitoes. I personally do understand and support learning, and progressing. I am not saying stay in a shell for the rest of your life. I also know they use certain spider poison for heart medications. The thing is, when I go to by food I personally do not want to read about bugs on the package. No offense. That is not a selling point for me. I do not know much about mosquitoes, except that over here in the states- if they bite you- it will make you itch and annoy you. They are tiny and just in the way. Mosquitoes may do something good for science but they can also cause illness and death if you contract certain problems from them. Most of those cases are rare and controlled but still. I do not think its fair to put them on a poster and say oh look at the poor little bug. What about the poor little humans? I say we get "off bug spray" and keep it around. I will eat the chocolate though.
I must sound so shallow minded at times. I try not to but it seems to flow from me these days. I think my brain was just meant to be cynical and misanthrope. Although I'm not misanthrope. I am just cynical. I also have made a pack with myself. NO MORE REPLACING ANYTHING. I am so clumsy. I have had to replace so many CDs and things. I am not a big shopper but yeah. From now on, until I can stop breaking things, no more. I am just not big on TV. I read, and listen to music. That is what I do for entertainment. I could say a few things but I'm okay for now. I have a lot of doubles of things. Its sad. The pathetic part is that they're all broken.
I decided to get rid of my space. It was due to the fact that myspace is for children and famous people. I will keep my cradle of filth page, face book, twitter, and blogger. So with that in mind.
There is a lot to do and it does not happen in one day but it does not happen in your eye.
P.S. That little round cute pink picture is the back of my pinkytoast mirror. You can find it on etsy.

My eye balls

I had a shrunken head that I got out of a gum ball machine but the plastic face got messed up. Now you cannot tell what it is. Pretty much you're looking at a plastic ball that squeezes out blue stuff, that at one time looked like- its eyes were popping out of its head.
I found some old cards in an old wallet and it looks like my Columbia Music card had a discount that we can assure has expired by now. That is okay. I only got some cartoons back in 1999 from them on VHS tapes.
I also learned that if you drop anything on your head, like a magnifier it will hurt.
I love my cats but they both need a bio hazard sticker on their litter box. The good news is that nothing has crawled out and started to dance. So whatever it is that they ate, is dead and gone. The bad news is- it smells like the bog of eternal stench.
Shadow had 5 kittens a few weeks back. They are adorable. One of them looks like the stone cat. You know the one and only. I keep catching myself wanting to call it that, but I stop myself every time. It did the cutest thing one day. I woke it up and it hissed at me. So adorable. The good news there- They're too small to get out of their box. So they cannot attack me in my sleep.
My eye balls are funny because if I do not get enough sleep, then they burn like they're on fire. They have the same affect if I cry too much.

Glass Mason Jars

I truly feel sorry for butterflies and small insects that draw peoples attention. It is a complete mystery if you will-
I can relate. This living breathing creature is minding its own business and then someone thinks it is worth enough to keep. So that person takes it, locks it away in a glass jar, and then will not let it out. The creature does everything it can to help. It flies about to entertain the master. It talks to the master and offers answers to the masters questions. Yet the master has it in his mind that the butterfly is his. The butterfly loves its master but its not enough and soon even with the tiny holes in the lid- the butterfly dies. Yet even in death, the master will pass the jar around to all of his friends to take a look at the creature. This is his prize. Everyone should have a deeper look. Everyone should stare at her and mock her.
That was a bad example of what I wanted to say. I was going to say something else and I am without sleep. I think I need to go to bed for a few hours before I have to get up. I cannot wait for next month. This blog was not that much because words cannot say- and I wish I knew how to speak the words.
1. I'm NOT married.
2. I do not have children.
3. I'm NOT engaged. DO NOT get that out of what I just said. I was talking about big businesses taking over the little people in a matter of speaking. Don't ask.
4. The past is the past and it is so grey.
Song of the day- New Divide by Linkin Park
Drink of the night- NOT ENOUGH VODKA.

Many thoughts so here we go. FACTS

Here is a few little facts for you-
1. I grew up in the middle of no where. Its hard to get your hands on indi films and its not a crime to watch them. I am not stuck in any OTHER decade other then the current one. There is no time warp here.
2. I do love to read books and I rarely buy magazines because they collect dust after you read them. I do have a habit of buying rock magazines because I end up going through the companies on the inside FOR RECORDS, CD deals, OR other things that I find interesting.
3. I am not a big shopper but I do shop. DO YOU SHOP? OKAY THEN. Also I did not just buy everything that I own.
4. MY LIFE IS NOT YOURS.
5. I am not you. You are not me.
6. If you want to say hi. Say hi.
7. When you're a woman and you take a picture of your whole body or a sexy picture of yourself, then you get attention for the wrong thing. It is NOT wrong to look good. It is just all of a sudden, you get a lot of attention and that is not what I am here for. I am here to keep in touch with some family who live far away.
8. I have to keep up with AVM research.
9. I keep looking for a Kammer Doll.
10. I need to start looking for an agent.
11. MY LIFE / Career is not for you to contemplate or help out with. I said I wanted street credit. I did not ask for your hands or mouths.
12. I have been through a lot. I will not write you a novel to explain myself.
13. You have to ask yourself a few questions- One who is it that said BOO?
14. I am not a liar. I am not here to kiss any one's ass. If I have something to say then I'll say it. Its simple.
15. You pick your battles in life. You NEVER bow your head to anyone except GOD or Jesus Christ.
16. I have let this hold me down for some time. I am not the devil and there is a reason things look the way they do. YOU should watch your step at the door, because you might step in DOG crap if you don't watch out.
17. Some people have things to say and they sound like angels but the truth is, they are hollow shells of rotting shit.
18. I need to stop cussing so much. It is un lady like and it only makes me look like I cannot control my temper.
19. I took a full psych evaluation a few months back. I passed with flying colors. I had low grade depression. That and I had post traumatic stress due to childhood trauma. Other then that, I am NORMAL.
19. I have a photographic memory and I'm not a moron.
20. The reason the world around you is so lame, is because there is a shortage of air supply.
21. I am going to look dark, grim and that is okay for now. The reason is that now is not the time for this.
24. I am going to do what I planed with next month and hope for the best.
25. I fight my own fights. I am not asking for help. So you can stay out of it.
26. The thing is- before you start pointing fingers- take your middle finger and look at it for a second okay.
27. Here is a quote for you from one of my favorite bands-
"I met a man who was gone in a day. Memories blushed away. I met a man who was once on my side. NOW everyone lies. There's NO price tag on my conscience."~ JOJ

Okay now I'll stop with the answers. :))

Money Changes everything

I do not know why I feel the need to point this out and at this time, so here goes. Call it a vibe or you can call it a whim. I do not bitch all the time. I do not have to complain about money 24-7. I do NOT make fun of homeless people. The thing is, I have a sense of humor. It is going to show up every time I open my mouth. I am not homeless. Although- I do like going to thrift stores and homeless people always seem to filter around those in the bigger cities. I feel more comfortable talking to those people or as I should say having them walk up and talk to me, then having what you call "Normal people" talk to me.
My problem with not bitching about money is this- it goes with anything. If I think someone has messed with me, then I GO into defense mode. When Subway came out with their 5 dollar foot longs, they did not specif what was what. I kept getting charged 6-8 bucks. That was before tax. Then they switched it up and had a list of what ones you could get. So now I always ask. That is why I wanted to make sure about the price twice. That is why I made a joke about their company. I was NOT rude to that girl. If you were there then you would have understand and then you could have seen it all go down. I am not a liar. That is the thing about me- I tell it how it is. I do not sugar coat stuff. I do not kiss any one's ass. I rarely give out complements, because there is very little that is worth it in this life. If I have anything to say then I will say it. Just about everything I say comes out like some disrespectful joke. I'm not some annoying asshole. This blog is for the blog below it.
Everyone is allowed to keep a blog. I am no different. I am going to write about books because I LOVE to read. More then likely I will write about horror movies because I watch them, and I can guaranty you that I will mention candy and my sleeping problems. There is no problem but I had to interject that thought. I just wish I had done so last night.

Death on the Installment Plan with SUBWAY

Tonight I had dinner with my sister. We went to Subway. I have a few things to say. I think that they raised their prices because they had to pay that Jarrod actor more money to be in their commercials. I ask what it cost. My sister started to talk, and I guess she told me. So I ask the cashier. Yeah and I was not paying attention to what my sister said because most of the time she talks to much. Half of what she says is meaningless. So I just don't listen. Well, I ask the question twice. Then the cashier looked at me like I ask twice because we were white and she was Mexican.
Okay well first off, I eat at Taco Bell. So I do not give a shit if she is Mexican. Secondly my favorite director of all time is Guillermo Del Toro. That and the guy who does those Johnny Homicidal Maniac comic books is once again MEXICAN and his name is Jhonen Vasquez. I do NOT GIVE A SHIT. I AM NOT RACIST. FUCKING A. I listen to the DEFTONES AND I LISTEN TO JIMI HENDRIX.
She got all nervous and acted like she was going to cry after wards. I did not yell or get an attitude. I swear. I was not being rude. I honestly was just not going to listen to my sister talk about nothing. I love my sister but she does have a habit of talking about nothing for a long time. She has done it since we were kids.
Now I just want to go back up there and tell her about my sister and make MeriJo go up there and talk about something. Then I want to tell her its okay I am just weird to people. I am sorry, its not you. Its me. I was not being rude. I honestly do not have a problem with you. I just do not want to listen to my sister ramble unless I have to. I do know how people are. I have been friends with some. Plus I know how people can be in public. I have worked with some of them.
Okay well I have been watching movies. Not all the time but I have seen a few. Thanks to net flix. I am also reading a Louis Celine book called Death on the installment Plan. I am enjoying it so far.
So lets start off with -
Faust is a 1994 movie directed by Jan Svankmajer-
Do you all remember watching Mr. Rogers when you were a kid? Okay well did you ever think back upon it and how creepy it was that he was always out of breath when he took you into his home and then down into that creepy room where he talked to puppets? No one else thought that was a little weird? Thanks for being my neighbor. Yeah now we call those kind of guys weirdos and you do not talk to them. I also think most of them drive unmarked vans and always have candy in their pockets for kids. Okay well this movie reminded me of what if a group of college kids got a hold of a camera, old Mr. Rogers tapes, too much vodka, and a Peter Gabriel sledge hammer video. It was in between good and bad for me. It was funny in parts and kind of cool in a off the wall kind of way but so all over the place. This one puppet looked like George Michael and that made me laugh. Then the man had sex with one of the puppets and that was too dumb. There were these two guys in the movie who looked like at one time they were part of the cast of perfect strangers. It was kind of lame. The only funny thing that actually took place was that this homeless man took Faust's leg away when he died. That was only funny because when I was 20 years old, I went to this thrift store with Heather and this homeless guy kept walking around with a plastic foot and asking us why we had on body glitter. We had it on our eyes.

Audition is a 1999 movie directed by Takahsi Miike.
In this movie and mans wife dies and he holds auditions for a fake movie. The point is to find the perfect wife. He has a friend in the movie business who helps him set up the interviews. He ends up with a ghost. The ghost of a woman is horrible to him and attempts to kill him. He never wronged her. She just decided to hurt him. That was messed up. This movie is annoying because I am a woman and I know how annoying guys are but at the same time, I think that woman was completely out of line. I do not think anything she did was called for. I do not think two wrongs make a right. I also do not think that a bad childhood gives you a right to send hell to some guy. Guys can be assholes but there are girls out there who are bigger turds then most. I have been friends with some of them. I had a roommate a few years back named Jeanie whom I kicked out because she would not pay her half and she was the perfect example of a bad female joke. So when I walk by guys who have those lame tee shirts on- that say stupid things about women, It does not offend me. I am not like other girls but I know how women are. I also want to get back to the point of this movie. This movie jumped around a lot. The funniest part was the interviews. There was a woman who came in and said she had been to a mental institution and they said they would call her. Then after two other women had come and gone, that same woman came back in. All of a sudden, they looked at her and ask didn't we just see you? She said, yes but I was not done talking. They said you can go now. It was just funny. I did not care for it. The movie reminded me of a lot of women who are what you call fake friends. So my opinion is kind of jaded. It got on my nerves. I just wanted to yell at the girl and say get over it.

Kill Baby Kill is a 1968 movie directed by Mario Bava.
It is about a little girl who was killed in an accident. The mother brought the spirit back through psychic powers and is having the ghost haunt people and convince them to kill themselves. The village is cursed. The movie is set in the early 1900's but everyone has those swanky 60's early 70's hair cuts. That and those neato clothes. So its fake and too fashionable. The dolls in the little girls room were beautiful but it was too blah and over done. I think Rob Zombie could re do it and make it way better. Yes I went there. You knew I would. Sheri Moon and Rob would own it. I am serious and we all know it. All I am saying is that Mario Rava spent a little too much time with making sure everyone had the swanky hair cuts and cool jackets rather then the other goods.

Jennifer's Body is a 2009 movie directed by Karyn Kusama.
A rock band goes to a small town to play a show. They want to make it into the business. They decide to sacrifice a virgin to Satan. The thing is the girl they pick lies about being a virgin and the demon stays in her body and she then must eat flesh to feed the beast. Its lame. The sex scene is even worse. The blond chick actually says stick it in me. They are in love right? Okay yeah that was believable. Then he stops at one point and ask her if hes big? I started to laugh. Whats even better is the song the indi band sings in the movie. Its called up in the trees. It sounds A LOT like that song that was done on that show for INXS. You remember when they wanted to find a new lead singer. They were down to three people. The dude they have now, the chick, and that blond dude. Yeah the blond dude wrote a song. I do not know. I am just saying. blah I was not impressed. Although it did make fun of itself in a few places and that was okay. I will say this- THANK GOD for movie rentals because I am not sure if you can return DVDs because they suck. There is one last thing I will say about it and this is because I grew up listening to Hole. They named the movie Jennifer's Body. There is a Hole song with that title off of their "Live Through this" CD. What is odd- on the movie at the end when the credits were rolling, they played Violet by Hole. Which is off of the Live through this album too. Could they not get the rights for Jennifer's body or something?

Radio Edit

I ended up eating some of my own words the other day. I never say things that I do not mean. I never give out fake compliments. That is the thing about me- if I have something to say then I will say it. If I do not care, then I leave it alone. I stopped watching MTV around 2000. I would flip it over there from time to time for award shows or this or that. This or that means if something important was going to be there. That would be a band that I actually listen to. I think once your generation has graduated you get set in your ways and you typically sit back and don't usually listen to that much that comes out after that. Its not that you close your mind to it, but you do not go out of your way for it.
When I was in 6th grade, I found a band called L7. They were linked to a few other bands like Fluffy, 7 year Bitch, Babes in ToyLand, Luna Chicks, and Hole. Then came Jack Off Jill. JOJ broke up and the lead singer formed a band called Scarling. The lead singer of Hole married the lead singer of another band that I grew up listening to- his name was Kurt D Cobain. L7 took a few of those bands on their Beauty Process Tour. JOJ toured with Marilyn Manson.
I never dug the grunge movement but I think everyone can agree that it has moved us all forward. Not in a poetic way but yeah. I do have a love and deep respect for chick punk rock that cannot be quoted. I am 30 years old and I still listen to LUNA CHICKS and and 7 year Bitch. They're NOT Bowie, but they do have their own level.
I personally love darker sounds. I do not care for what they are calling death metal where it sounds like the guitar is being abused. I love a slow dark sound from the guitar. I love it when it sounds like the guitar is dipped in the darkest pain its ever felt. Like a Cello. I have an odd taste for electronic sounds so that gets my attention and the lyrics have to be clever. Cradle of Filth have some of the most beauty lyrics in some of their songs. I never liked light electronic sounds but Enigma always had respect from me and Dream of the Dolphin was one of my favorites. In fact if I was going to ask for something from an artist, I would ask David Bowie to redo Modern Love and do it basically acoustic but with a xylophone. There is a pain that runs deep within. A pain that not many people can know. That pain that is dark and life can hold hidden chambers for some, parts of it that you must go through at different times but not many people know about. A place that haunts.
I do not think its fair to say that because someone makes it that they sell out. That is the thing- most of the reason that those indi bands do not make it- IS because they do not have the money to tour. That or they are under a company who cannot support them. Songs are all catchy in their own way. So its not the songs fault. If you can play an instrument then that is not the problem. Most of those artist put their faith in companies who honestly are legalized crooks. They do not do what they should and then take most of the album sales. It is sad. They do not send the album to anyone but local stations and it just flies back and affects the band who is the one trying to make it. The fans are not the ones to blame either. You should NEVER be ashamed of who you are or where you come from.
I had some people I grew up with that at one time- WHO were friends of mine, bring up things that were parts of what happened. They brought them up, like it would embarrass me. So I addressed it and then walked away. Never bow your head to anyone except God or Jesus.
Let me tell you what a sell out is.
A sell out is a person who turns into something they never were and then destroys everything around them because they are that stupid.

Absolut Vanilla Vodka

I have been working on a blog that is called be kind re wind for a month now. The reason is simple. Its not about what others think or he said and she did this. It is about redemption and not bowing my head to anyone except God.
I also have decided to take an IQ + Memory test. I have a photographic memory. Its a complete brain teaser to people who do not have one. Most people who do not have a photographic memory will not believe you when you say you have one. You have to prove it. They will pull out cards and bulbs. Just about anything next to them to see if its real. I do not find it funny as much as I find it annoying. I do not care anymore. The blog was one of those on the moment kind of things. It just kind of happened. I got sick of the constant redundant vociferous mutant bs. So I honestly did not care. I seriously did not give a crap. Then after the break up, and after Holly decided to be a piss-tart at Heather's apartment- I decided it was time to set the record straight once and for all. I think my IQ goes down about ten points every time I post something, but when people see the final blog- it will all make perfect since. It is not ready and I have set it to private until it is ready.
I personally am done with the past. I am not walking into 2010 the way I walked into 2008, or 2009. I am seriously ready for a change. That was not a sarcastic spit fest. I'm legit.
I guess on New Years the people in my neighborhood decided to go out in the middle of the road to scream at the top of their lungs, and blow bazookas. Yeah, um well all I can say is that I am glad to be alive too but I am not that excited about the new year. Its just they acted like they had just given birth to a two headed rat. At one point it sounded like they stopped and one of them was correcting the others on how to blow a bazooka. That made it double funny. I just kept laughing. I mean is there a special way to blow into a bazooka? Is there a class for it now?
I watched a movie called PI. It was this black and white film about a man who had a chip in his head. He was good with numbers. People wanted him to find a 216 digit number that would unlock the universe. The constant moving of the camera was a cool affect but if I was drunk, I could see how that would make me paranoid, or dizzy. The funniest part was when the guy kept seeing this human Brain lying around on the ground and he kept poking it. It was like when you're a kid and you see a big bug. You're like "Kick the beetle." I have no idea why but one of the old guys that picked him up looked like this creepy Santa that used to work at the shopping mall. That was weird and btw when I went up to the mall in December one night to go shopping- I needed Christmas cards, there was this Santa guy and he walked by Sub Way. He was holding his pants in his hands, and he was breathing heavily. That was creepy. If I was a little kid, that would have given me nightmares.
P.S.
The picture taken at the top is of a piece of art bought off Etsy by Jen Lightfoot. I'm a big Jack Off Jill fan, so it was only 30. That was my birthday gift to myself. The coffee stuff came from my sister. Thanks again.
P.S.S. Now for something sad and seriously not good.
RIP to the drummer boy. :(

Okay with keeping up.

I have been having a LOT of problems with prank phone calls so a new number is needed. A lot of this is just spam. I have changed my number in the last ten years about 8 times. Most of it is due to X boy friends or X friends who are drunks and well- there you go. I have started a new blog that is to clear up who I am and what is up with me. The reason is that NO ONE FUCKING LISTENS OR REMEMBERS ANYTHING I SAY. I am sick and damn tired of it. This is going to be graphic. This is not something your grandmother would want you to read. This will not be for immature people.
Here are the URL's You may have to copy and paste. Well, the other one is just personal. It only has stuff about my birthday. I will not add it in. Its actually connected to this. Everyday when I have time- I will add to it and make sure there is more on that. I posted a bulletin once and talked clearly. No one wants to remember that huh? Eh take it to your mother.
be kind re wind